Slight segue here, I’m supposed to attend a themed party tonight and any type of themed party always discourages me from going. I equate dressing up in costume to Halloween and thus the anxiety starts cropping up. Now back on topic.

While contemplating why I actually hate halloween, I figured out that it isn’t so much the holiday part as it is the costumes and the dressing up that I hate. That’s when I started remembering being a little kid, and all the repressed memories came back. I always liked the girl costumes so much better than the ones for boys. I didn’t want to be a comic book character or a fucking Ninja Turtle, I hated those things as I child. I didn’t want to watch batman, I wanted an easy bake oven! While my parents (my mom more so than my dad) would have let me dress up as anything I wanted to be for Halloween, I would have been way to self conscious and embarrassed (even as a kid) to dress up as something “socially unacceptable”. So as a young kid I turned my anxiety about myself into a pure hatred of an innocent holiday. I’m basically the Scrooge of Halloween.

Now none of this makes much of a difference. I am still not going to dress up as a Ninja Turtle or a Princess for halloween, and I don’t think anything will change that. But it is nice to have a better understanding of why I feel the way I do. As for this party tonight, I am going as myself, nothing more nothing less, and once I’ve made my appearance I’ll most likely leave because I’ll feel uncomfortable. And if that makes the host mad, oh well. I made it clear before I don’t dress up and I didn’t have to come in the first place.

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Completely unrelated to anything else, I’ve lost six pounds in the past two weeks! I am so excited! Visually all this exercise hasn’t made for much of a change really, but I’m glad I have some noticeable results. This will only help fuel the fire. I can’t wait to start feeling even better about myself.

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I feel like I’ve eaten the entire buffet and then some at Golden Corral! I haven’t though; hell I wouldn’t be caught dead at a Golden Corral. We went to Firehouse Subs for lunch today, and to anyone who hasn’t tried it, you are truly missing out. The subs are delicious, and their “medium sub” is more filling without chips than Subway’s six inch meal. It isn’t much more in price either.

Bailey was being extra cute this morning cuddling with Billy. I wish he would do that with me, but I’m not his “mommy”. I do love him though. Him and Loki are my babies. Plum is just Grand-pa kitty since he’s so much older.

Tomorrow I have to call the Postal Service and open a claim since they’ve lost a package. I called last week and they said I had to wait 14 days of the tracking information being outdated before they would do anything (even though on their website it said after 7 postal days). I’m mad, but not overly pissed since the package was free to begin with. It’s my free iPhone case from Apple. Don’t get me wrong I want it, I’m just not as mad as if I had actually paid for it.

There was something it seems that I wanted to mention, but I just can’t remember what it was. Oh well if it comes to me I’ll just do an edit and add it in. Later guys, love ya!

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So far the project with the hinges is progressing. Once we get a system going it will be faster (I hope). Billy bought me a present at Home Depot today, a door stop! I know what you’re thinking but I really did want it. It’s one of the magnetic ones that holds the door open. Now the cats can’t close the door in the bathroom.

We got our hair done this afternoon. Nothing special just a cut and style, but it’s always nice to see John. The other girl was there doing some girls hair and they were having the most awkward and hilarious conversation the entire time. They were making fun of all their old friends from high school and how fucked up they’ve all become. The best part though was when the stylist asked the other girl “Do you remember when I was pregnant in high school and got that abortion?” Such an odd topic to bring up in mixed company.

Anyway our day has been fairly tame today so I don’t have much to report. Billy is playing Grand Theft Auto while the paint on the hinges dries and I took this opportunity to do a short update. See you guys later!

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After praising myself so well in my last post I’ve already slipped. We stayed out way too late last night at a bar that was way too busy. Ended up standing up all night and my legs just couldn’t bear the treadmill today. I guess its good to have a day of rest too. I’ll be back on it first thing in the morning though! I’ve gotta work on that hot body!

Speaking of last night, it was crazy busy. We went out with a few friends and waded through the crowds of people and the ear splitting dance music. At one point everyone except Billy and I was on the dancefloor. I was far too sober to even attempt dancing. I know where my abilities are, and it certainly isn’t there. It was fun though, even though I had to pee the entire time (which is why I wasn’t drinking). Gay bar/club bathrooms scare the hell out of me!

Billy and I are starting a medium sized home project. Since remodeling the bathroom, and working on our bedroom we are slowly getting all the fit and finish done. All of the chrome and brass in the house will eventually go away and be replaced with oil-rubbed bronze. The door knobs are mainly what is left, and at $25 each and needing 30 of them it’s a slow process. To add insult to injury the door hinges are $3 each and needing three per door adds even more to the equation. Now I’m not going to cheap out on the knobs but as for the hinges, we bought some “Oil-rubbed bronze” spray paint. So we shall see how this turns out. Since they don’t get touched or rub on anything it “should” hold up fine. We already know the color matches really well.

I upgraded my version of MarsEdit on my laptop to the newest version and It’s much improved. I highly suggest it as a blogging tool for mac users and word-press users. It supposedly integrates with iPhoto now, we shall see.

I feel slightly guilty for playing music in the background. It’s turned down so low I can’t even hear it. I’m just trying to run up my play counts on last.fm ha ha. I’m such a dork! Oh and click the link, it’ll take you to my profile where you can friend me (hint hint).

Well, I’ve babbled enough for now. Its time for a snack! I think i’m going to get a nutri-grain bar…

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I’ve noticed a few small changes over the past couple weeks of all this exercise and stuff. My pants fit different, they’re a lot tighter in the ass! I can only hope that all this uphill treadmill jogging has started to create an ass back there. Hopefully some visible result will show soon, that’s the motivator. If I can see a difference then hopefully it won’t seem like a chore anymore.

I’m still upset about the whole job thing, but what can I do about it? I’m just going to have to find something else (hopefully).

Last night the kittens were hell-bent on playing with the Roomba. Every time I’d turn around one of them would be on top of it pushing the “clean” button and then attempting to ride it. It started making a funny noise so I flipped it over and pulled a cat toy out of the brushes. I also discovered more parts that come off of it to clean. I didn’t even know the cat hair would get in some of these places. It runs a lot better now though! I can’t wait to get rid of this carpet and have the hard wood floors down. Less mess, and easier on both it and me to clean.

I found a nifty iPad, iPhone, and Mac app that organizes all your bank statements yesterday. I spent a couple of hours typing every thing in and I’m still not done yet. I’m amazed that so far this year I only had two transactions that I couldn’t remember what the were for. One was my Ad Valorem taxes, and the other I still haven’t figured out. It was to some company I don’t remember for $9 on July 28th. Odd that I can’t remember and it wasn’t that long ago.

Speaking of iPhone, I still love my iPhone 4, and my iPad! I’m excited because Deal Extreme finally has knock-off apple docks for both of them now for like $5 each. I bought a knock-off dock for my 3G from them and it worked perfect. Shipping takes a few weeks since it comes from china but it’s well worth it in savings.

While we are on the subject of iPhones still, my “free” case from Apple has gone missing during shipment. It was shipped DHL Global Mail, where DHL ships it to a local post office near you and then you receive it via USPS. Well the last tracking update had it changing hands from DHL to USPS on the other side of Atlanta on August 16th, and it hasn’t been seen again. USPS won’t open a claim until next Wednesday. I could have walked to where it is (or was) and back by now.

Loki has been very sweet lately. Not that he isn’t usually nice, it’s just rare for him to be this lovey. I can’t complain though. Last night Bailey hit a milestone, he laid down in the bed near Andy and even allowed him to pet him. Granted next time they see each other I’m sure he’ll go back to hiding under the bed like always. Oh, and Plum is still alive and kicking. I think having these five foster kittens has given him a reason to live. He doesn’t want them to turn into his replacement.

Well I think I’ve bored y’all enough, have fun and be safe peeps! Oh and follow me on Twitter guys! Hope to tweet you soon!

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Then this afternoon I get a call from my future employer letting me know that they’ve decided to not hire any more people this year. So they were taking back my job offer. So I just lost a job that I hadn’t even started yet! Fuck Me!!! What has me pissed the most is my very first interview was back in March, and I was offered the job in May. However they push back the start date until September 7th which I wasn’t happy about, but waiting a few months for a good guaranteed job is better than not having one at all. So now I’ve been strung along this long and right before I start they pull the plug. What the fuck am I going to do?

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I’ve spent the better part of the last two days (or so) going back through all my old blog posts cleaning up. I didn’t delete them or anything, but a lot of them had broken links or pictures. I was able to fix most of the pictures, and the ones I couldn’t I removed the image tags out so it wouldn’t display a broken link. I had great hopes of being able to find all the appropriate pictures but alas some are just gone into oblivion. It’s one of the unfortunate consequences of changing web hosts, that and my unwillingness to embrace WordPress’ own gallery function. I’ve since come to terms that using plugins for other types of galleries is just a botch job that never works fluidly. I haven’t decided if I want to change the way I have my photography gallery or not yet though. I still have it hosted through Picasa. I do however like how the built in gallery plays nice with lightbox and it just works for imbedding into posts.

Oh, I’m really big into Last.fm (my profile) so add me as a friend on there please! If you’ve never tried it it’s similar to Pandora only better. It gathers data on the music you listen to in iTunes, on your iPod/iPhone/iPad and makes suggestions for music you would like based on what you listen to. Give it a try!

I was lucky enough earlier this week to come across someone on an online forum that had a question about their Nissan Altima Coupe. They had a new 2010 model fully loaded with black interior and silver trim. They wanted to know if all the black trim pieces that show up on ebay from wrecked 2008+ models would work or not (which they will) and I told him so. So he sold me some of his silver trim pieces (that I like better) for $25. New it would have cost me over $130; SCORE! I bring this up because FedEx just showed up a little bit ago with my package!

Ok I better bug out, the more I talk the less you’ll read =)

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Couldn’t have a post if I didn’t mention the cats at some point, so here we go. I let them out today because they’ve been locked up in the bedroom all week. I’m sure they’re going stir crazy by now. Bailey is running through the house meowing, which isn’t in the slightest bit odd (sad isn’t it?).

Billy is cooking a nice brunch for us. Pancakes, bacon, and scrambled eggs OH MY! And while he’s cooking we have the tv show on the Game Show Network watching Match Game ’74. I love watching these old game shows!

Onya is right under the stove waiting for Billy to drop something. I’d laugh if bacon grease landed on her. I know I’m mean but she’s so stupid it’s almost not funny. Wow even Loki is in the kitchen rubbing on the stove. Food must be almost ready so I better sign out.

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Speaking of the grocery store, I take my mom every Wednesday, it’s our little weekly adventure. We’ve even started including it on Twitter as a game. When I check-in on foursquare I always ask for everyone to guess our total, and then post the results when we check out. This week was a whopping $255.83 at Publix, granted just shopping at Publix adds to the bill.

Andy and Billy are playing Super Mario Bros on the Wii, so I figured WordPress could occupy some of my free time. Speaking of, the WordPress for iPad app (what I’m using) needs a couple of bugs squashed. Sometimes the fields will overlap when the screen rotates and it’ll become permanently stuck that way. Also a good portion of the time when you attempt to attach a picture to a blog post the app just crashes, which is a major headache.

I’ve been craving some Sour Patch Kids (watermelon) candy the last few days, and they actually had a bad at Publix today. It satisfied my craving but they aren’t as good as they normally are since I’m sick. =(

Oh, I had all my hair cut off the other day! I totally forgot to mention that. The long hair was nice but it wasn’t functional this time of the year. I have to flat iron it everyday, and the first drop of sweat and it will start to curl and look awful. Plus with as hot as it’s been lately I could only keep it looking good for maybe an hour at most, so it just had to go. We’ve been a lot more social with our new friends than we are use to (and I’m so thankful for it) that I just had to lop it all off. Let’s see if I can get a picture attached to this post without the app crashing. Oh and this was taken with the front facing camera on my iPhone 4; shameless plug I know but I LOVE my new iPhone.

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