I know I’m almost two months early talking about Halloween, but I had a thought earlier that brought back repressed memories. All of my friends (and some family) have always found it odd that as long as they’ve known me (or can remember) I’ve always hated Halloween with a passion. I never really understood why myself, and as an almost teenager my friends thought it was weird that I’d pass up the chance for all this free candy. As a spoiled only-child though, I got all the candy that I ever wanted anyway, and I got to pick good stuff!

Slight segue here, I’m supposed to attend a themed party tonight and any type of themed party always discourages me from going. I equate dressing up in costume to Halloween and thus the anxiety starts cropping up. Now back on topic.

While contemplating why I actually hate halloween, I figured out that it isn’t so much the holiday part as it is the costumes and the dressing up that I hate. That’s when I started remembering being a little kid, and all the repressed memories came back. I always liked the girl costumes so much better than the ones for boys. I didn’t want to be a comic book character or a fucking Ninja Turtle, I hated those things as I child. I didn’t want to watch batman, I wanted an easy bake oven! While my parents (my mom more so than my dad) would have let me dress up as anything I wanted to be for Halloween, I would have been way to self conscious and embarrassed (even as a kid) to dress up as something “socially unacceptable”. So as a young kid I turned my anxiety about myself into a pure hatred of an innocent holiday. I’m basically the Scrooge of Halloween.

Now none of this makes much of a difference. I am still not going to dress up as a Ninja Turtle or a Princess for halloween, and I don’t think anything will change that. But it is nice to have a better understanding of why I feel the way I do. As for this party tonight, I am going as myself, nothing more nothing less, and once I’ve made my appearance I’ll most likely leave because I’ll feel uncomfortable. And if that makes the host mad, oh well. I made it clear before I don’t dress up and I didn’t have to come in the first place.

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Completely unrelated to anything else, I’ve lost six pounds in the past two weeks! I am so excited! Visually all this exercise hasn’t made for much of a change really, but I’m glad I have some noticeable results. This will only help fuel the fire. I can’t wait to start feeling even better about myself.

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Location: Lawrenceville, GA United States

…you just want to rip off all your clothes and jump right in. Or at least that’s how I feel right now. The weather has been much cooler lately so it’s actually enjoyable to be outside. Don’t get me wrong it’s still hot out, but it’s livable. I want to get in the pool so bad but I know the water is cold. Such hard decisions in life!

I feel like I’ve eaten the entire buffet and then some at Golden Corral! I haven’t though; hell I wouldn’t be caught dead at a Golden Corral. We went to Firehouse Subs for lunch today, and to anyone who hasn’t tried it, you are truly missing out. The subs are delicious, and their “medium sub” is more filling without chips than Subway’s six inch meal. It isn’t much more in price either.

Bailey was being extra cute this morning cuddling with Billy. I wish he would do that with me, but I’m not his “mommy”. I do love him though. Him and Loki are my babies. Plum is just Grand-pa kitty since he’s so much older.

Tomorrow I have to call the Postal Service and open a claim since they’ve lost a package. I called last week and they said I had to wait 14 days of the tracking information being outdated before they would do anything (even though on their website it said after 7 postal days). I’m mad, but not overly pissed since the package was free to begin with. It’s my free iPhone case from Apple. Don’t get me wrong I want it, I’m just not as mad as if I had actually paid for it.

There was something it seems that I wanted to mention, but I just can’t remember what it was. Oh well if it comes to me I’ll just do an edit and add it in. Later guys, love ya!

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Location: Lawrenceville, GA United States

Ever since beating Super Mario Bros. on the Wii, Billy has been digging through my video games looking for something else to conquer. Never did I think he’d pick Grand Theft Auto. It’s cute how he was hell bent on playing the game without using cheat codes, and as soon as I left the room when he was having trouble with a mission he miraculously beat it. Closer inspection reveals cheats now listed in his virtual cellphone.

After praising myself so well in my last post I’ve already slipped. We stayed out way too late last night at a bar that was way too busy. Ended up standing up all night and my legs just couldn’t bear the treadmill today. I guess its good to have a day of rest too. I’ll be back on it first thing in the morning though! I’ve gotta work on that hot body!

Speaking of last night, it was crazy busy. We went out with a few friends and waded through the crowds of people and the ear splitting dance music. At one point everyone except Billy and I was on the dancefloor. I was far too sober to even attempt dancing. I know where my abilities are, and it certainly isn’t there. It was fun though, even though I had to pee the entire time (which is why I wasn’t drinking). Gay bar/club bathrooms scare the hell out of me!

Billy and I are starting a medium sized home project. Since remodeling the bathroom, and working on our bedroom we are slowly getting all the fit and finish done. All of the chrome and brass in the house will eventually go away and be replaced with oil-rubbed bronze. The door knobs are mainly what is left, and at $25 each and needing 30 of them it’s a slow process. To add insult to injury the door hinges are $3 each and needing three per door adds even more to the equation. Now I’m not going to cheap out on the knobs but as for the hinges, we bought some “Oil-rubbed bronze” spray paint. So we shall see how this turns out. Since they don’t get touched or rub on anything it “should” hold up fine. We already know the color matches really well.

I upgraded my version of MarsEdit on my laptop to the newest version and It’s much improved. I highly suggest it as a blogging tool for mac users and word-press users. It supposedly integrates with iPhoto now, we shall see.

I feel slightly guilty for playing music in the background. It’s turned down so low I can’t even hear it. I’m just trying to run up my play counts on last.fm ha ha. I’m such a dork! Oh and click the link, it’ll take you to my profile where you can friend me (hint hint).

Well, I’ve babbled enough for now. Its time for a snack! I think i’m going to get a nutri-grain bar…

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Location: Lawrenceville, GA United States

I just saw a commercial on tv for Kingsford Charcoal, and they used a very slowed down version of “(Keep Feeling) Fascination” by the Human League. It was very odd. At first I didn’t recognize the song but I thought it was weird that I knew what words were coming next.

Couldn’t have a post if I didn’t mention the cats at some point, so here we go. I let them out today because they’ve been locked up in the bedroom all week. I’m sure they’re going stir crazy by now. Bailey is running through the house meowing, which isn’t in the slightest bit odd (sad isn’t it?).

Billy is cooking a nice brunch for us. Pancakes, bacon, and scrambled eggs OH MY! And while he’s cooking we have the tv show on the Game Show Network watching Match Game ’74. I love watching these old game shows!

Onya is right under the stove waiting for Billy to drop something. I’d laugh if bacon grease landed on her. I know I’m mean but she’s so stupid it’s almost not funny. Wow even Loki is in the kitchen rubbing on the stove. Food must be almost ready so I better sign out.

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Location: Lawrenceville, GA United States

So last night I felt a tickle in my throat but nothing too telling. I figured I could sleep it off and I’d feel great this morning, no such luck. So far it seems to be a mild cold so hopefully it’ll stay that way. Right now my nose is runny and my throat is swollen, I got some over-the-counter pills at the grocery store today so I’m hoping that will keep me afloat for a while.

Speaking of the grocery store, I take my mom every Wednesday, it’s our little weekly adventure. We’ve even started including it on Twitter as a game. When I check-in on foursquare I always ask for everyone to guess our total, and then post the results when we check out. This week was a whopping $255.83 at Publix, granted just shopping at Publix adds to the bill.

Andy and Billy are playing Super Mario Bros on the Wii, so I figured WordPress could occupy some of my free time. Speaking of, the WordPress for iPad app (what I’m using) needs a couple of bugs squashed. Sometimes the fields will overlap when the screen rotates and it’ll become permanently stuck that way. Also a good portion of the time when you attempt to attach a picture to a blog post the app just crashes, which is a major headache.

I’ve been craving some Sour Patch Kids (watermelon) candy the last few days, and they actually had a bad at Publix today. It satisfied my craving but they aren’t as good as they normally are since I’m sick. =(

Oh, I had all my hair cut off the other day! I totally forgot to mention that. The long hair was nice but it wasn’t functional this time of the year. I have to flat iron it everyday, and the first drop of sweat and it will start to curl and look awful. Plus with as hot as it’s been lately I could only keep it looking good for maybe an hour at most, so it just had to go. We’ve been a lot more social with our new friends than we are use to (and I’m so thankful for it) that I just had to lop it all off. Let’s see if I can get a picture attached to this post without the app crashing. Oh and this was taken with the front facing camera on my iPhone 4; shameless plug I know but I LOVE my new iPhone.

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Location: Lawrenceville, GA United States