I’m feeling better today, I can’t speak for Billy though. The sound of football is prowling through the house making today a rather boring Sunday. While I’d rather gouge my eyes out than watch a game there just isn’t anything else to do. I can’t hang out with anybody for fear of getting them sick so I’m pretty much just stuck at home. I don’t even want to be in my room because I’ve seen so much of it the past few days. I could clean, lord knows it needs it; but what’s the point anyway? It won’t stay clean.

Billy has apparently moved on from ultralight ciggarettes to menthol. I can’t say I’m happy about that, but what can I do about that either. I was hoping he’d try and quit again but, that’s not going to happen I guess.

Twitter is becoming the bain of my existence it seems. Not the actual service but more so the iPhone clients. They all seem to have some caveat of equal but completely different annoyance. Twitterrific doesn’t do push and loads slow, Echofon has push but it’s far from instant, and it doesn’t support display names only usernames. Tweetie just doesn’t do anything worthwhile at all. Wait I didn’t tag this post as a rant so I should quit while I’m ahead…

I hate being sick, it messes up your routine. I should be hungry, but I’m not. I want to eat, but I don’t even know if it would be a meal or just eating for the sake of eating. Ugh, there isn’t anything to eat in the house anyway.

I’m going to miss the new Family Guy tonight because Desperate Housewives is starting up!!! I have so many shows to keep up with downloading. Desperate Housewives, Family Guy, Cleveland Show, American Dad, the Simpsons; and that’s just Sundays. I have a weekly lineup too! I’m going to fill up this terabyte drive I bought (just for my iTunes library) pretty quick at this rate. Oh and not to spoil the Cleveland Show for anyone who hasn’t seen the pilot yet (it’s been all over the Internet all summer), the show looks good, but not great.

Well this killed a few minutes of the day. I purposly typed it on my phone for that very reason.

– Kevin Salas
Posted from my iPhone

I don’t know why, or how these days happen or occur, but I hate them with a passion. It isn’t something you can tell when you wake up, it gradually just becomes more and more aware as the day lingers on, and on. It’s one of those days where everything seems fine, but all of a sudden you notice how dark it’s become around you; either indoors or out. When all the little things around you slowly become more and more annoying for no reason. Nothing is changing around you; it’s all in your head but it becomes more and more vivid as the events proceed. All the sounds, feelings, tastes, and light grow bitter and cold because you’ve grown miserable of your surroundings. The tiniest sound or disturbance will set you on fire with rage for no real coherent reason. All you’re aware of is your sudden madness and frustration with everything around you. You can’t cool off you can’t shake it you can’t even walk it off. Even being alone in your struggle isn’t an option. The more rational you try to be the more maddening your senses are. Others may try and help; place a hand on your shoulder, but your mad because they are there; if they weren’t you’d be mad because they aren’t. Sympathy turns into patronizing; and sadly nothing can help you. You’re all alone within yourself crying out needing something, something to fix this but there isn’t anything. All alone; just you and yourself to sit in saddening, maddening solitude.

I’ll come back and revisit this shortly; I need time for my mind to move further; maybe some air too.

-Kevin.

Life always seems to surprise you when you least expect it. Also at the most inconvenient of times it will throw you a curve-ball. This would have been the second year in a row that I would have gotten the holiday’s off from work, and I was really looking forward to it. Actually this year was going to be a bit nicer than last. We were supposed to work tonight (Monday night) and have the rest of the week off for Thanksgiving, and then like last year we were getting the weeks of Christmas and New Years off as well. I save up about two weeks of vacation time each year to use for Thanksgiving week, and Christmas week, The week of New Years is considered next year to payroll, so I just take it without pay, which isn’t a big deal. We always schedule an out of town week right before Christmas so that we will get a larger than norma mileage check to make up for the week without pay. This year we were doing both of the last two weeks before Christmas in Alabama, so it was going to be a really nice milage check for us.

Unfortunately things don’t always pan out the way they are planned. Corporate has decided in their infinite wisdom that they want to save as much money as they can during the holidays and over the last few weeks of the year. So they have decided to cancel all the scheduled inventories for Period 12 (basically the next three weeks). Which means that I now have 93 hours of vacation time to spread across four weeks of no work. I have the option to go and work in a store for extra hours, but since I haven’t worked in a store in over a year and a half I really don’t want to. Plus everyone has hired all of their seasonal employees and won’t have any labor hours to spend on me either.

I guess in a nut-shell I was laid off today.

Best of all, no one actually has any information about next year. So as far as we know we are employed with the company but have nothing to do (i.e. get paid to do) and might, or might not come the first week of January. So lucky me, no job for a month and I can’t even file unemployment. I got the best ’severance package’ as we’re calling this cashing in our vacation time to cover as much as we can. My boss and co-worker only have 40 and 33 hours (respectively) of vacation time to spread across this coming month.

Needless today tonight at work we weren’t working at full speed. For two reasons actually; one in disbelief, and two we needed tonight to take as long as it could so we could get as many hours on the clock as possible.

So if anyone has any free time here in oh say the next month and wants to hang-out, let me know. I’ll be available and bored. I should probably start practicing doing naughty things on web-cam again for money incase I loose my job entirely. =)

It’s really sad that that’s as positive as I can be…

-Kevin.

I need a drink…

Why is it that everytime I know I’m going to have a reasonably long night at work I never seem to get much sleep the night before? Generally with the schedule I keep I am up till 3, 4, or 5 in the morning and don’t get up till 1 the next afternoon. Last night I went to bed at 3 and now I’m up at 9:30, WTF! I am going to be so tired later but I can’t go back to sleep. Maybe I should start taking a sleeping pill on nights I know I need the sleep, even if I’m already tired enough to get to sleep. What to do… What to do..?

Oh on a completly different and unreleted note, I am absolutly loving this wordpress for iPhone app, granted I’m sure it would be easier to roll over and pull my laptop out from under the bed and blog that way, but my problem is motivation; and this seems to cure it. Not that it probably means anything to the two whole people that read this =).

I have been pondering going back to a gallery or some other form of hosting for pictures on my website. Hell if flickr releases their own native iPhone (I love the way Apple programs it to automatically capitalize the “p”) app I might just break down and pay for an account. I need to go through and clean up my wordpress plug-ins and such. The behind-the-scenes here is a bit messy. That last layout was the most rigged contraption I’ve ever come up with.

I’m still laying here wide awake, I need to get up and pee, or do *something* constructive…

-Kevin.