I know I’m almost two months early talking about Halloween, but I had a thought earlier that brought back repressed memories. All of my friends (and some family) have always found it odd that as long as they’ve known me (or can remember) I’ve always hated Halloween with a passion. I never really understood why myself, and as an almost teenager my friends thought it was weird that I’d pass up the chance for all this free candy. As a spoiled only-child though, I got all the candy that I ever wanted anyway, and I got to pick good stuff!

Slight segue here, I’m supposed to attend a themed party tonight and any type of themed party always discourages me from going. I equate dressing up in costume to Halloween and thus the anxiety starts cropping up. Now back on topic.

While contemplating why I actually hate halloween, I figured out that it isn’t so much the holiday part as it is the costumes and the dressing up that I hate. That’s when I started remembering being a little kid, and all the repressed memories came back. I always liked the girl costumes so much better than the ones for boys. I didn’t want to be a comic book character or a fucking Ninja Turtle, I hated those things as I child. I didn’t want to watch batman, I wanted an easy bake oven! While my parents (my mom more so than my dad) would have let me dress up as anything I wanted to be for Halloween, I would have been way to self conscious and embarrassed (even as a kid) to dress up as something “socially unacceptable”. So as a young kid I turned my anxiety about myself into a pure hatred of an innocent holiday. I’m basically the Scrooge of Halloween.

Now none of this makes much of a difference. I am still not going to dress up as a Ninja Turtle or a Princess for halloween, and I don’t think anything will change that. But it is nice to have a better understanding of why I feel the way I do. As for this party tonight, I am going as myself, nothing more nothing less, and once I’ve made my appearance I’ll most likely leave because I’ll feel uncomfortable. And if that makes the host mad, oh well. I made it clear before I don’t dress up and I didn’t have to come in the first place.

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Completely unrelated to anything else, I’ve lost six pounds in the past two weeks! I am so excited! Visually all this exercise hasn’t made for much of a change really, but I’m glad I have some noticeable results. This will only help fuel the fire. I can’t wait to start feeling even better about myself.

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Location: Lawrenceville, GA United States

…you just want to rip off all your clothes and jump right in. Or at least that’s how I feel right now. The weather has been much cooler lately so it’s actually enjoyable to be outside. Don’t get me wrong it’s still hot out, but it’s livable. I want to get in the pool so bad but I know the water is cold. Such hard decisions in life!

I feel like I’ve eaten the entire buffet and then some at Golden Corral! I haven’t though; hell I wouldn’t be caught dead at a Golden Corral. We went to Firehouse Subs for lunch today, and to anyone who hasn’t tried it, you are truly missing out. The subs are delicious, and their “medium sub” is more filling without chips than Subway’s six inch meal. It isn’t much more in price either.

Bailey was being extra cute this morning cuddling with Billy. I wish he would do that with me, but I’m not his “mommy”. I do love him though. Him and Loki are my babies. Plum is just Grand-pa kitty since he’s so much older.

Tomorrow I have to call the Postal Service and open a claim since they’ve lost a package. I called last week and they said I had to wait 14 days of the tracking information being outdated before they would do anything (even though on their website it said after 7 postal days). I’m mad, but not overly pissed since the package was free to begin with. It’s my free iPhone case from Apple. Don’t get me wrong I want it, I’m just not as mad as if I had actually paid for it.

There was something it seems that I wanted to mention, but I just can’t remember what it was. Oh well if it comes to me I’ll just do an edit and add it in. Later guys, love ya!

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Location: Lawrenceville, GA United States

The iPad WordPress app is quite handy (as you’ve undoubtedly noticed I use it quite frequently). Unfortunately it has some bugs in it. The biggest of which for me is that it crashes every time I attempt to add an image to a post. However the iPhone app doesn’t. So usually what happens is I’ll type out a post on my iPad, save it on the server as a draft, and then open it on my phone to insert the image. Can we say pain in the ass? Never the less I still absolutely love my iPad! I really love the wallpaper I have for it (same as my phone). I only wish I could remember where I found it at. Oh well maybe one day I’ll remember.

So far the project with the hinges is progressing. Once we get a system going it will be faster (I hope). Billy bought me a present at Home Depot today, a door stop! I know what you’re thinking but I really did want it. It’s one of the magnetic ones that holds the door open. Now the cats can’t close the door in the bathroom.

We got our hair done this afternoon. Nothing special just a cut and style, but it’s always nice to see John. The other girl was there doing some girls hair and they were having the most awkward and hilarious conversation the entire time. They were making fun of all their old friends from high school and how fucked up they’ve all become. The best part though was when the stylist asked the other girl “Do you remember when I was pregnant in high school and got that abortion?” Such an odd topic to bring up in mixed company.

Anyway our day has been fairly tame today so I don’t have much to report. Billy is playing Grand Theft Auto while the paint on the hinges dries and I took this opportunity to do a short update. See you guys later!

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Location: Lawrenceville, GA United States

Ever since beating Super Mario Bros. on the Wii, Billy has been digging through my video games looking for something else to conquer. Never did I think he’d pick Grand Theft Auto. It’s cute how he was hell bent on playing the game without using cheat codes, and as soon as I left the room when he was having trouble with a mission he miraculously beat it. Closer inspection reveals cheats now listed in his virtual cellphone.

After praising myself so well in my last post I’ve already slipped. We stayed out way too late last night at a bar that was way too busy. Ended up standing up all night and my legs just couldn’t bear the treadmill today. I guess its good to have a day of rest too. I’ll be back on it first thing in the morning though! I’ve gotta work on that hot body!

Speaking of last night, it was crazy busy. We went out with a few friends and waded through the crowds of people and the ear splitting dance music. At one point everyone except Billy and I was on the dancefloor. I was far too sober to even attempt dancing. I know where my abilities are, and it certainly isn’t there. It was fun though, even though I had to pee the entire time (which is why I wasn’t drinking). Gay bar/club bathrooms scare the hell out of me!

Billy and I are starting a medium sized home project. Since remodeling the bathroom, and working on our bedroom we are slowly getting all the fit and finish done. All of the chrome and brass in the house will eventually go away and be replaced with oil-rubbed bronze. The door knobs are mainly what is left, and at $25 each and needing 30 of them it’s a slow process. To add insult to injury the door hinges are $3 each and needing three per door adds even more to the equation. Now I’m not going to cheap out on the knobs but as for the hinges, we bought some “Oil-rubbed bronze” spray paint. So we shall see how this turns out. Since they don’t get touched or rub on anything it “should” hold up fine. We already know the color matches really well.

I upgraded my version of MarsEdit on my laptop to the newest version and It’s much improved. I highly suggest it as a blogging tool for mac users and word-press users. It supposedly integrates with iPhoto now, we shall see.

I feel slightly guilty for playing music in the background. It’s turned down so low I can’t even hear it. I’m just trying to run up my play counts on last.fm ha ha. I’m such a dork! Oh and click the link, it’ll take you to my profile where you can friend me (hint hint).

Well, I’ve babbled enough for now. Its time for a snack! I think i’m going to get a nutri-grain bar…

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Location: Lawrenceville, GA United States

I’m so proud of myself! I’ve been exercising everyday (a combination of treadmill and the bow-flex) and eating a lot better. I’ve learned that you stop eating when you’re full, not when the plate is empty. And if I get the munchies between meals I’ll have a healthy snack instead. Although I must confess I had a Reese’s peanut butter cup (the mini kind) the other day. I felt so guilt after because I had gone so long without chocolate. I won’t let Billy bring soda in the house either, that way I’ll only drink water. He still has his Dr. Pepper & Vanilla Cokes, both of which I wouldn’t touch anyway.

I’ve noticed a few small changes over the past couple weeks of all this exercise and stuff. My pants fit different, they’re a lot tighter in the ass! I can only hope that all this uphill treadmill jogging has started to create an ass back there. Hopefully some visible result will show soon, that’s the motivator. If I can see a difference then hopefully it won’t seem like a chore anymore.

I’m still upset about the whole job thing, but what can I do about it? I’m just going to have to find something else (hopefully).

Last night the kittens were hell-bent on playing with the Roomba. Every time I’d turn around one of them would be on top of it pushing the “clean” button and then attempting to ride it. It started making a funny noise so I flipped it over and pulled a cat toy out of the brushes. I also discovered more parts that come off of it to clean. I didn’t even know the cat hair would get in some of these places. It runs a lot better now though! I can’t wait to get rid of this carpet and have the hard wood floors down. Less mess, and easier on both it and me to clean.

I found a nifty iPad, iPhone, and Mac app that organizes all your bank statements yesterday. I spent a couple of hours typing every thing in and I’m still not done yet. I’m amazed that so far this year I only had two transactions that I couldn’t remember what the were for. One was my Ad Valorem taxes, and the other I still haven’t figured out. It was to some company I don’t remember for $9 on July 28th. Odd that I can’t remember and it wasn’t that long ago.

Speaking of iPhone, I still love my iPhone 4, and my iPad! I’m excited because Deal Extreme finally has knock-off apple docks for both of them now for like $5 each. I bought a knock-off dock for my 3G from them and it worked perfect. Shipping takes a few weeks since it comes from china but it’s well worth it in savings.

While we are on the subject of iPhones still, my “free” case from Apple has gone missing during shipment. It was shipped DHL Global Mail, where DHL ships it to a local post office near you and then you receive it via USPS. Well the last tracking update had it changing hands from DHL to USPS on the other side of Atlanta on August 16th, and it hasn’t been seen again. USPS won’t open a claim until next Wednesday. I could have walked to where it is (or was) and back by now.

Loki has been very sweet lately. Not that he isn’t usually nice, it’s just rare for him to be this lovey. I can’t complain though. Last night Bailey hit a milestone, he laid down in the bed near Andy and even allowed him to pet him. Granted next time they see each other I’m sure he’ll go back to hiding under the bed like always. Oh, and Plum is still alive and kicking. I think having these five foster kittens has given him a reason to live. He doesn’t want them to turn into his replacement.

Well I think I’ve bored y’all enough, have fun and be safe peeps! Oh and follow me on Twitter guys! Hope to tweet you soon!

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Location: Lawrenceville, GA United States